Simple Question: "Why?"

Have you ever gone to bed feeling completely overwhelmed by the tentacles of another?

That drowning feeling overcame me last night. Having been through the tumultuous ride of depression years ago, I knew what to do. The signs of slipping into the deep murky end of the emotional sea are now well known to me.

As any drowning person would do, I cried out for help. Well, actually, I Facebook messaged for a ring buoy.

Stunned and bloated with tears though I was, my mind was still racing with questions. As my life-guard, my cousin, used her shepherd's crook to pull me in, I asked her, "Why will she not leave me the @$%* alone?" 

There is something infantile in the presumption that somebody else has a responsibility to give your life meaning and point… The truly adult view, by contrast, is that our life is as meaningful, as full and as wonderful as we choose to make it.” ― Richard Dawkins, The God Delusion

"Why?" Such a simple yet profound and oftentimes unanswerable question. Posing it, most of the time we really do not anticipate a satisfying response. Yet, asking "Why" can start a conversation that eventually lights a path to follow.

My cousin could not give me a definitive answer and I did not expect one. Her Australian candour and wit, however, sliced my pain like Spanish machetes in the mangroves.  Sleep came soon after logging off from her.

I arose this morning with a throbbing headache but certain what needed to be done. "Be the question," was what Bishop John Shelby Spong told me over a decade ago as I sought his direction regarding my calling. So, today I am "Why?"

You can join me on our page or follow on Twitter @DOSFoundation as we explore why? If you have been challenged by feelings of depression and uncertain how to cope, please feel free to message me - there is NOTHING to be ashamed about. There are many resources available that I might be able to share with you.

Blessings and have a peace-filled day. Namaste